So Much To Do

Well I guess one way to be forced to go through and purge things is to move.  Going through thirty years of acquiring things is a scary thought.  Not knowing exactly what type of house we will be going to is also hard to know how much we can take with us.  So many emotions going through my mind - sadness, happiness, excitement, and fear.  Right now I am just praying that we are able to sell our house without any problems.  I am not too worried about finding a new one once we know what is going on with this one except for finding the time to go back and forth to Fort Wayne while dealing with selling and packing.  It is going to be a stressful next couple of months.

Welcome 2012!

     I cannot believe another year has gone by!!  I have a feeling that 2012 will be a good year.  I have been hearing positive things here and there.  I know there may be BIG changes in our household.

     Well my reorganizing project for 2011 did not go as quickly as I would have liked - too many things seem to get in the way!  I will be continuing that project in 2012 and may be forced to complete it whether I like it or not.

     So many things to accomplish and so little time and money!!  I am still waiting for my numbers to be chosen in the lottery.  I have so many ideas and plans to make a difference.

My Happy Living Room!

Yesterday I walked into my living room and realized it felt different.  The energy in the room felt open and happy.  It was a really good feeling.  Why you ask?  On Wednesday I was having a meeting in the evening so I gave it a REALLY good cleaning.  There is clutter pretty much everywhere in my house but I have majorly reduced it in the living room trying to make things look more organized.  I absolutely love the "Happy Living Room" so my next quest is to make the Kitchen a "Happy Place"!!

Yesterday

Yesterday was a gorgeous day!  The weather was perfect and I spent the day baking.  I made two batches of zucchini bread and a batch of Banana Split Amish Friendship Bread.  It was also the kind of day I wish every day could be like.  It is days like that I wish I didn't have to work and could be Suzy the Homemaker all the time.

Unfortunately, I feel like I did not truly appreciate being a stay at home mom when I was able to do that and now that I have the appreciation for it I am not able to be one.  Not that I have any "children" anymore - although Cari will always be a "child" in a sense.

I read something recently that talked about how most people find it difficult to get things done around the house as they see whatever needs done as being a chore.  They suggested trying a new approach and look at taking care of your home as your hobby.  Another issue in my house as I am sure is in many others right now is money!  There is not enough spare funds to do what needs to get done.  So my approach to this is to try to break everything down into little mini redecorating/remodeling sessions and do it in pieces - something is better than nothing and will eventually all come together.  First on the agenda is the downstairs family room.  Goal for this weekend is to start tearing it apart which I am sure is going to be more than a one weekend project.  I am sure to find many more items to add to the fall garage sale.  When it is all done it will be nice to have a usable family room once again!  I used to love decorating the downstairs for Christmas!!  Hopefully it will be done by then.

Missing Those We Love

Last night I watched the Nightline Special: Beyond Belief which seemed to confirm my beliefs of the afterlife.  One of the men interviewed talked about how he "died" and at the Gates waiting was his grandfather who said to him - Welcome Home.  I immediately started to tear up as that is what a dear friend wrote in her final words to those she loved - telling us that one day when it was our time that she would be waiting to Welcome us Home.

After watching this show I went to bed and tearfully went to sleep thinking of my dear friend and my grandmother and how much I miss them.  My grandma has been gone for over 22 years.  I occasionally still dream about her.  It is a strange feeling as in the dream I know she is gone but a part of me thinks if I can just hold her tight enough I can bring her back with me.  I once in a while have a dream with my dad in it - in these dreams though I seem to have conversations we never really had when he was alive.

The people in the show last night all talked about how peaceful dying was that a calm seemed to come over all of them before moving on and that there was no pain involved.  I find that very reassuring to know as one of the men was in a horrific accident. 

I once had a dream - well I am not sure if it was actually a dream or not but was in a semi-conscious state - after Tim's dad passed away.  I was laying in bed and saw Tim's dad start to walk into my room my reaction seemed to have made him change his mind.  I had the feeling that he wanted to tell me something and to this day I regret being afraid and scaring him away.  I believe if we allow the spirits to connect with us they will come but if you show fear, which we tend to do with the unknown, they will stay away so as not to frighten us.

Just to let those loved ones who have passed know that I am no longer fearful of being visited by you and welcome it in whatever form it may be.

Quality Time

Meg came in for the weekend. Is always nice to get to spend some quality time with her. Last night after she got in we watched the episodes she hadn't yet seen of The Glee Project. Today, we checked out the clearance sale at JoAnn's.  I picked up some baby girl dress patterns to make some clothes for my great niece and some eyelet trim for some craft projects for Crafty Lilac Ladies. She set me up on Pandora since one of my favorite radio stations, the Fresh 105.9, will no longer be as of Monday.  I made her favorite dinner - Beef Noodle Bake and now we are watching Dirty Dancing - she has never seen it!

Just A Tuesday

Another non exciting Tuesday.  I did get my new Fall/Winter Longaberger catalogs, August and September flyers.  A few neat new items - pumpkins, Woven Traditions Colander and  my favorite is an 8 in 1 Entertainer.

I did work out again today and according to the Wii I lost almost a pound!!  Woo Hoo!  That should be motivation to keep going.

Sitting here with the windows open.  The evening cooled off very nicely.  Yesterday I saw a segment on Good Morning America about conserving energy by cooling off the house at night while the electricity rates were low so I tried it and my air never went on until early evening which by that time I realized it was nice outside so I turned it off and opened the windows.  I plan on trying the same technique in the winter to heat the house over night.

Was wondering today if there was a full moon as I ran across many crazy drivers - actually that started yesterday afternoon when some guy in the left turn lane decided he didn't want to turn left anymore so just started to back up when there were cars behind him.  They were honking at him and he just continued luckily they all back up so there was no accident.

Watching America's Got Talent and some group is doing a routine to Save A Horse - sorry but nobody can work that song like Drew!

What am I thankful for today - being able to open the windows tonight and enjoy a cool breeze, getting my own office at work and losing a pound!